So I think it has been well over a year since I have written in here. As of very lately a lot has changed. I (oddly enough) still live in the same apartment. I have finally gotten full-time at my job. Which ended up being a 4, 10 hour days type of thing. I still love it, and we are going on almost 2 years now. Ok, now on to other things. I am no longer a cat person. That is a long story in itself, but they are gone and I am in a no pet household. My mom has moved in, she needed help, and after all that's what family is for. Ok, now for the juicy stuff. Relationship status and updates. Tara and I have finally decided it would be best if we ended things. Shortly after that there was a blowout between her and my mom, and she has decided that moving out is her only option. So needless to say, even though she is all but a block away, we don't see one another or talk very often at all. I have recently (a month ago today) began dating someone new. New in the type of relationship, but she has been in my life for upwards of 4 years now. Friends in college, kept in touch, now we are happily content with each other. Something new considering the amount of fighting I did in my last relationship. Don't misunderstand me, this is new, I'm sure we will fight :) I just have a feeling its going to be over things like what we are going to do that day, and nothing more serious for the most part. It's an entertaining concept to say the least. Anyway, for now this is my update. Short but to the point. Hopefully with more information to come.

Current Mood: optimistic

So I have been in my new apartment since March, kind of hate it. It's really more like I hate the situation with the neighbors and landlord, but whatever. I have been working at Kidspeace since last September. For me, that is an accomplishment, because, I still love it. I am trying to get full time, but for now I am working well over 40 hours a week (which is full-time). I am a happy workaholic. hmm.. what else..
Tara and I were together 2 years in April. We have definately gone through some hard times but we have gotten through. We are going stronger than ever. We still fight, but it's the healthy kind now. lol She is working at a new job, and lets be honest being a 2 income household will boad much better.
Tonight we brought home a new edition to the family. A little Ewok looking black kitten.. so of course, his name is Wickett. Our 2 girls are adjusting, slowly, but surely..we think.. It seems, we are becoming cat people. Although they act more like dogs.. they are sweet and we love them dearly.
We recently visited our 2 favorite people, Karen and Heather. It was kind of eye opening. We are all adults. We do things like visit and talk about work, and how domesticated we are, and thn go out to dinner, and then.. play Wii.. lol. Honestly, it was the best time I have had in awhile. They are amazing people.. and even better friends. I miss them.
I think it is just odd for me, I mean, I left college, and yes I miss some of it, but I like being in the real world. I like going to work, and coming home to lay on the floor (we have no couch) to talk about my day with my love. I really like talking about going grocery shopping, and lets make a list of the things we need.. its actually comforting.
I am happy to say that for once in my life, other than thinking very seriously about moving elsewhere... I am content... me.. content.. hmm.. not something I thought I would ever be, but I think I like it. I have a good job, a beautiful girlfriend, and some annoying but loving cats, and the new kitten whom I have only had for ab out 2 hours... lol. Life is funny, good, but funny.

Current Mood: chipper

So for those of you who don't know.. I took a leave of absence from school. I will be back next fall. I just needed some time away. Anyway, I work at KidsPeace children's Hospital. No I don't work residential, I work with the kids with mega psychiatric issues. I am a child care counselor. Work directly with them. I LOVE my job. I make excellent money, and work with some of the greatest people I could ever ask for. I have made amazing friends. I am currently part time which is 24 hrs a week, but I am averaging about 35-40+ hrs a week. Nice paychecks. Anyway, I am also moving into an apartment come january 4thish. Small 1 bedroom place, kitchen bath, living room. It's nice, and decently priced. It is in Palmerton.. about 15ish minutes from work and maybe 30 from school. Also like 40 minutes from my mom, which is nice.. right in the middle. Anyway, there are some other HUGE changes in my life.. but that is for another entry.

Current Mood: awake

So I was with my mom, step-dad, sister, nephew, niece, uncle, aunt, cousin, brother, and Tara for the weekend. It was nice. We sat around, talked... it was just nice. I came to the realization with my siblings that we are all adults, my brother with two children, my sister with two and me engaged, and in college.... damn.
Anyway, I also thought about the fact that I'm not really happy here right now. Now don't get me wrong Tara and I are great, and college is well... college. It sucks most days. I'm working longer hours.. its just...life. However.... I want to get this car. I want to travel. I want to work three jobs to afford to save and rent an apartment. I want to get out of here for awhile. Not a vacation where I'm with my family and waking up at the ass crack of dawn to deal with the kids, but when im waking up at the ass crack of dawn to look at the sun rise. I'm just not fully happy right now. I feel the need to just go somewhere. I am very tired of staring out the window or being on the internet and seeing something wishing I was going there.. or going somewhere. I feel like I am in Jail at school. Without a car, with no where really to go... I feel like it is starting to make me lifeless. I want to be able to say hey lets go for a ride, and suddenly end up somewhere for a week. A day, a weekend.. whatever!!!! Anyway, I just feel trapped..

Current Mood: determined

So, arguing with my other half seems to be our ritual as to late. Miserable and evil all rolled into one. Although today is her birthday she is legal, i still kinda wanna throw something at her. All while i'm over excited that she is coming back next sunday. A trip to Philadelphia to chill with my best friend and her other half.. and then off to the airport to pick up my girl.

Spent most of yesterday with pookie. We watched movies, one which was Ron White, so of course we laughed uncontrollably. However, we also picked something we thought to be a comedy, of course it was also a big piece of sap. So we kept looking at eachother saying "dude, be strong.. just a movie" While we were both tearing up a bit. We then decided we would go back to the movie store and get "blood, guns, and girls" to reclaim our "manhood" However that was a bust. Of course that is when my other half and i had yet our most recent falling out.

Tonight should pose to be interesting. Going to a party in the boonies with my pals. Alcohol, pools, Jacuzzi's, friends, ex sex buddies, should be entertaining... I wasn't looking forward to it, but I miss my Best friend, and I need a night out. It's been a crappy summer.

So, alas, I am off to try and not argue with the girl on her birthday, while packing some things, and maybe eating some food.

Current Mood: amused

Poll #786408 My Big Damn Poll..
Open to: All, detailed results viewable to: All, participants: 4

Are you Gay?

"You Complete Me!" So I'm sure you have heard this statement before. I've been hearing it for years... The problem is I don't do commitments.. or well i didn't. So basically when people said things like that.. or said soulmates.. I never really understood it. I couldn't comprehend why anyone would want to be with one person.. the same person.. for thier entire adult life. Wouldn't they get bored? What if they saw someone who was better.. wouldn't they want to "trade in" who they had for this new person? Well as you can see, relationships.. and love. and committing... not so much my cup of tea. Until recently....
So current day in time... I am in a relationship... a commited relationship with someone. Not just anyone.. but this beautiful, intelligent, caring woman.. and she loves me. No questions asked.. no judgments.. she just.. loves me. Sometimes It's unbelievable and sometimes i have to really sit back and wonder how anyone can love me so much. Basically, in a short time, I have fallen head over heals madly in love. All it takes to get me into a good mood is her smile or laugh. Its this unbelievable force. She puts me in my place.. noone has ever done that. She believes in me, and she does things no one has ever done. This may sound pitiful, but she told me i was beautiful, and ::she doesn't know this:: but when she left.. i cried... because.. noone had ever called me beautiful before.
Right now she is in Florida... tomorrow is exactly a month since i saw that smile.. or touched that beautiful face.. kissed those amazing lips..anyway.. the point is I have never missed anyone before. When i moved out of my mom's house at 17.. well it wasnt a big deal. i didnt cry, i dint have home sickness. This girl left.. and i couldnt sleep for weeks.. I cried daily for 2 weeks. I have another 2 months and some days until I get to hold that amazing woman in my arms.
I guess this entry is just to admit to myself that I really was wrong. It is possible to find that one person to which you want to spend the rest of your life with. in fact she made it quite clear to me.. that I never want anyone else... ever again. I asked her to marry me.. yes.. seems soon.. but nothing has never felt so right.. and when she said yes.. god.. that word has never sounded so sweet. So now.. me.. the person who swore they would never settle down.. I am engaged.. and in love.. and happy. truly happy. She is the piece of me that was missing.. and now I am whole.

I love you Tara-Lynn! With all of my heart!

Current Mood: loved